Thursday, March 5, 2009
So sad
There is a new angel in my family. My cousin and his wife delivered their stillborn baby tonight. It has just brought back so many memories and scares me about the whole process of trying to have another baby. I can't believe that this has happened to two people in my family. What are the chances. We are not even "blood" related. This is on my dads side but he is not my biological father. But I feel like he is my real dad. I am rambling, but I am just a ball of emotions. I got to see the baby and she is beautiful. Please pray for my cousin and his wife. I just hate that this happened to them.
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
papers signed!Here is a list of things you should NEVER say to someone experiencing IF --
So we met with the attorney and got the papers signed! FINALLY! I will call the RE in the morning to get their fax number so I can send them a copy of the contract. Now we just have to wait for our cycles so we can have blood work. We missed me by 2 days!........2 days!!!!!!! But I must move on! I am trying to stay postive and keep healthy happy thoughts. I am in the process of weaning off of caffiene. Yuck! So far I have been getting headaches. Oh well par for the course!
This is something I found on a suurogacy blog that I have been reading. I thought it was very fitting and wanted to share!
Here is a list of things you should NEVER say to someone experiencing IF --They are young and have plenty of time--I was only 24 when I was diagnosed but it didn't help when people said, you are still so young. Well women's fertility starts declining when you hit 30 and I really wanted my children close together. Doesn't IF hurt all the same no matter what age you are?Maybe god only wants you to have one (or none)--
First who are you to tell me what god wants. He wants me a good mother to only have one baby to love, but the crack whore down the street to have 10? Did God tell you that? It seems like something he would say.....Relax and it will happen--Really will it?
But a RE can (reproductive endocrinologist)IVF is against religion--Again did God tell you this? God created the modern science to have assisted reproductive technologies and I think God does want us to use them. Also in the bible there are stories of surrogacy, so again how is god against this?Well I personally wouldn't go through all that--Well good for you!
My husband just has to look at me to get me pregnant--again good for you, but how exactly is that helpful to ME?Are you doing it right?--um.......I think so. Why do you want to come watch and take notes? I think I know the precise hours of which I ovulate, which position is the best for baby making and to put my feet up when I am done. I know more about my body and reproduction then I ever wanted and you want to know if we know how to have sex correctly?????
Why don't you just adopt!--My response is usually "why don't you"? I am all for adoption, it's really a wonderful way to build your family, however it's not easy. It's expensive and very hard to do. Usually the person saying this has never adopted or even looked into it. If it was so easy, most people who want a baby would have one! Also the person saying this is not offering a $40,000 check help with the expense of adoption.Don't mention how hard YOUR pregnancy is--most of the time IF people don't care. They would gladly be throwing up all day, have swollen ankles, a huge stomach, stretch marks just to have a baby. Also don't be gloatful. Personally for me, one of the hardest things, were people who would gloat in my face about how easy it was for them to get pregnant, how great it was for them.
And on a surrogacy side:don't ask very personal questions, related to money! (if we wanted you to know we would tell you)don't try to second guess our decisions (we are the ones who researched this for 2 years, not you.
-If you have a valid question, ask it, otherwise keep your thoughts to yourself)don't pity us (we are incredibly excited to be on this journey. We have found the perfect surrogate for us and couldn't be happier)don't say anything like this baby isn't really "our baby"(because it is. We are doing Gestational surrogacy, it's our egg and our sperm, but even if it wasn't, it would still be "OUR" baby)don't point out the negative press surrogacy gets on then news (if you researched you would know thousands of baby's are born every year via surrogacy and it goes wonderfully. The news just doesn't talk about all of those!)
-Do:be supportiveask valid questions if you have them, if you are interested in how the process worksbe excited with usEnjoy our surrogate pregnancy with usWhat you can say/do--be supportive, just listen.--research IF on your own, so you can get a feeling of what they are going through--remember them on days like Mother's day and Father's day, and things like a Baby shower, where it would be difficult for them to attend without being sad--ask what you can do to help, usually it's only to talk... Do pregnant women bother me as a whole, not too much. I do get a twinge of sadness that I will never again be pregnant, no cute baby bump for me, no glowing air, no feeling a baby kick inside me. What makes me sad/mad is women who shouldn't be having babies getting pregnant. As I mentioned above, the crack whore, women who just keep having babies to stay on the system, women who aren't good mothers, don't really care about their children, just keep having them because they can. Those situations hurt.
This is something I found on a suurogacy blog that I have been reading. I thought it was very fitting and wanted to share!
Here is a list of things you should NEVER say to someone experiencing IF --They are young and have plenty of time--I was only 24 when I was diagnosed but it didn't help when people said, you are still so young. Well women's fertility starts declining when you hit 30 and I really wanted my children close together. Doesn't IF hurt all the same no matter what age you are?Maybe god only wants you to have one (or none)--
First who are you to tell me what god wants. He wants me a good mother to only have one baby to love, but the crack whore down the street to have 10? Did God tell you that? It seems like something he would say.....Relax and it will happen--Really will it?
But a RE can (reproductive endocrinologist)IVF is against religion--Again did God tell you this? God created the modern science to have assisted reproductive technologies and I think God does want us to use them. Also in the bible there are stories of surrogacy, so again how is god against this?Well I personally wouldn't go through all that--Well good for you!
My husband just has to look at me to get me pregnant--again good for you, but how exactly is that helpful to ME?Are you doing it right?--um.......I think so. Why do you want to come watch and take notes? I think I know the precise hours of which I ovulate, which position is the best for baby making and to put my feet up when I am done. I know more about my body and reproduction then I ever wanted and you want to know if we know how to have sex correctly?????
Why don't you just adopt!--My response is usually "why don't you"? I am all for adoption, it's really a wonderful way to build your family, however it's not easy. It's expensive and very hard to do. Usually the person saying this has never adopted or even looked into it. If it was so easy, most people who want a baby would have one! Also the person saying this is not offering a $40,000 check help with the expense of adoption.Don't mention how hard YOUR pregnancy is--most of the time IF people don't care. They would gladly be throwing up all day, have swollen ankles, a huge stomach, stretch marks just to have a baby. Also don't be gloatful. Personally for me, one of the hardest things, were people who would gloat in my face about how easy it was for them to get pregnant, how great it was for them.
And on a surrogacy side:don't ask very personal questions, related to money! (if we wanted you to know we would tell you)don't try to second guess our decisions (we are the ones who researched this for 2 years, not you.
-If you have a valid question, ask it, otherwise keep your thoughts to yourself)don't pity us (we are incredibly excited to be on this journey. We have found the perfect surrogate for us and couldn't be happier)don't say anything like this baby isn't really "our baby"(because it is. We are doing Gestational surrogacy, it's our egg and our sperm, but even if it wasn't, it would still be "OUR" baby)don't point out the negative press surrogacy gets on then news (if you researched you would know thousands of baby's are born every year via surrogacy and it goes wonderfully. The news just doesn't talk about all of those!)
-Do:be supportiveask valid questions if you have them, if you are interested in how the process worksbe excited with usEnjoy our surrogate pregnancy with usWhat you can say/do--be supportive, just listen.--research IF on your own, so you can get a feeling of what they are going through--remember them on days like Mother's day and Father's day, and things like a Baby shower, where it would be difficult for them to attend without being sad--ask what you can do to help, usually it's only to talk... Do pregnant women bother me as a whole, not too much. I do get a twinge of sadness that I will never again be pregnant, no cute baby bump for me, no glowing air, no feeling a baby kick inside me. What makes me sad/mad is women who shouldn't be having babies getting pregnant. As I mentioned above, the crack whore, women who just keep having babies to stay on the system, women who aren't good mothers, don't really care about their children, just keep having them because they can. Those situations hurt.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Finally getting somewhere!
So after what seems like years we meeting with the attorney to sign the final surrogacy contract. I am so glad that we are as Amie could start any day and we have to have blood test done on her third day of her cycle. But I am out this month for my blood tests since I started before we could get the papers signed. UGH! I am so ready to get this process started. I have been trying to take better care of myself so that I can grow the best eggs ever! I am trying to work out and eat better. I think I am going to have a hard time cutting out the caffiene. But I have done it before so I am sure I can do it again! I am a ball of emotions tonight. I am so grateful to Amie for offering to do this for us, but at the same time it is a little sad to me. I know that I will never be pregnant again. While my brain knows it is for the best, my heart breaks a little. But the main thing is we want another baby. I don't want Anderson growing up as an only child like I did. Plus I just feel like I have so much love to give!
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